Where can I find help????
My anxiety and the black hole I am in has been progressively been getting worse again over the past month, so much so that yesterday I phoned my Mental Health Case/Support worker to talk to her about it.
Well that was a complete and utter waste of time and left me feeling even more of a failure.
I described to her how overwhelmed I am feeling and how my anxiety has me on edge all day, and that despite sleeping tablets I am not sleeping well. I told her that I needed some help, I don’t know what to do, but I know I am slipping further and further down hill and I really, really need some help.
She said all she could offer me is a case worker who would come out and make up a rehab plan, and I asked her what that entailed and it is what they do with the Alcohol and Drug Clients. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Last time I checked I had PND not an A&D problem.
I then told her about the kind of awesome support I got through Maternal Mental Health in Timaru and at that she reminded me that there is no MMH and there are no support networks like that open to me, but she could quickly action someone to come out and create a rehab plan for me.
I said no to this and asked if she could talk to my psychiatrist and she said she would and that she would come out to see me on a home visit today and be there between 0915 – 0930 at 1000hrs she still had not turned up so I phoned her office to see if she had left and was on her way. But Noooooooooooo she had “overlooked” her appt with me. Grrrrrrrrrrr. So I asked her if we could reschedule and she said yep that would be great, so I can see her in a couple of weeks time. *sob*
Honestly, it is so bloody hard to ask for help and she is the person that I am supposed to ask for help from, but it is seeming more obvious that she not only has little experience in this area, but also lacks interest to learn/research the area to help me.
Really though, I can’t be the only person in the area covered by Tairawhiti DHB with PND???
So I have asked for help and it doesn’t seem to be available through TDHB so where do I go next to ask?